Emily Dickinson – CXVII – I HAVE a king who does not speak

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I HAVE a king who does not speak;
So, wondering, thro’ the hours meek
   I trudge the day away,—
Half glad when it is night and sleep,
If, haply, thro’ a dream to peep
   In parlors shut by day.

 

And if I do, when morning comes,
It is as if a hundred drums
   Did round my pillow roll,
And shouts fill all my childish sky,
And bells keep saying “victory”
   From steeples in my soul!

 

And if I don’t, the little Bird
Within the Orchard is not heard,
   And I omit to pray,
“Father, thy will be done” to-day,
For my will goes the other way,
   And it were perjury!

Emily Dickinson – CXVI – I MEASURE every grief I meet

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I MEASURE every grief I meet
With analytic eyes;
I wonder if it weighs like mine,
Or has an easier size.
I wonder if they bore it long,
Or did it just begin?
I could not tell the date of mine,
It feels so old a pain.

 

I wonder if it hurts to live,
And if they have to try,
And whether, could they choose between,
They would not rather die.

 

I wonder if when years have piled—
Some thousands—on the cause
Of early hurt, if such a lapse
Could give them any pause;
Or would they go on aching still
Through centuries above,
Enlightened to a larger pain
By contrast with the love.
The grieved are many, I am told;
The reason deeper lies,—
Death is but one and comes but once,
And only nails the eyes.

 

There’s grief of want, and grief of cold,—
A sort they call “despair”;
There ’s banishment from native eyes,
In sight of native air.

 

And though I may not guess the kind
Correctly, yet to me
A piercing comfort it affords
In passing Calvary,

 

To note the fashions of the cross,
Of those that stand alone,
Still fascinated to presume
That some are like my own.
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