By Alfred Brown
This is the poem where I finally got to use the sentence that had been rattling in my brain for a few years “Everything was fine until I got shot in the face.” I wrote it first sometime, probably around 2013, then I did some edits to it around 2014 or 2015. The intention with the edits was to make the poems into songs.
49 -curry
If you know me, you know that i worry
Anxiety to me is like spice to curry
Even if you don’t want it, it will be there
It is the same anytime anywhere
It is to be expected, it is how it’s made
Since the beginning and so it’s stayed
Letting you know cause if you want without
You might as well go about another route
C:
If you got a good job
But it ain’t great
You get paid well
But you end up irate
If you know what I’m sayin
And ain’t gonna hate
Then you can call me up baby
Cause we got a date
I wish i didn’t feel like I’m running around
I wish i could feel like I’m on solid ground
But the ground keeps movin and i do too
And i don’t know what i am going to do
Cause i can’t keep it up but i can’t stop
One of these days i think I’m gonna pop
I try to keep cool but I’m going too hot
If you can handle it you can have what i got
50 -i just had to go
Don’t know if you can understand
Let me tell you it wasn’t planned
One day woke up and realized
To me all this time you had lied
So i decided then and there
To pack it up and go somewhere
i got my things and headed out
I hit the streets and walked about
C:
Cause i just had to go
couldn’t stay and still know
That you’d treat me cold
Despite all you had told
About loving me so
And love would grow and grow
So i went out the door
You wont see me no more
I met an old man on the road
I listened to the words he told
And there were great meaning to them
I asked him to say them again
He said, i see that you are lost
I see that you have paid great cost
I see that now you are afraid
I see that for too long you stayed
You stayed with her who was untrue
Until you knew what you should do
Open the door and walk away
Accept it all and come what may
I know it’s hard but it was right
To get your things and then take flight
Cause you deserve someone who will
Give love and be true to you still
I thanked him cause i was troubled
And for telling me this doubled
Needed to hear it more than once
I guess i am that much a dunce
He said no problem and you know
The way ahead’s the way to go
But as you walk keep eyes open
Because this road is bound to bend