By Alfred Brown
This is the poem where I finally got to use the sentence that had been rattling in my brain for a few years “Everything was fine until I got shot in the face.” I wrote it first sometime, probably around 2013, then I did some edits to it around 2014 or 2015. The intention with the edits was to make the poems into songs.
20 -sleep
If i could only get some sleep
If i could only rest my head
I would go under so deep
You’d think i was dead
If i could only get some rest
If i could only lie in my bed
I know it would be for the best
Cause my eyes are so red
C:
I need some sleep
I need some rest
And count some sheep
Cause I’m a mess
If i could only close my lids
If i could only sleep well tonight
Like a baby or little kids
Who pull their covers up so tight
If i could only get forty winks
If i could only shut off the light
But my mind goes on and thinks
What is wrong and never right
Break:
No i never get no sleep
When i try im wide awake
And the next day im so tired
Until i try again for goodness sake
Why cant my mind do
What my body knows must be done
I dont know can only say
I never sleep, insomnia is no fun
But some day i’ll close my eyes
And im sure it’ll be for the best
My grave will say here he lies
He finally got some rest
21 -i don't want to presume
I dont want to presume
I dont want to assume
I dont want to o’er step
Not looked before i lept
I want to get this right
I hope with all my might
That i may say it clear
And this is what you hear
I know you love me so
You wont ever let go
But i want you in bliss
So i must tell you this
We can still be as one
And still have lots of fun
But you are you and see
That i got to be me
C:
Let me be your fire light
That guides you through your night
But when comes the day
My heat might be in your way
Don’t have a lot that’s mine
I only have my time
If you want it it’s yours
You can have it all of course
If you want me to care
And love only you i swear
I can tell you now is true
That would be so easy to do
I open my mind and heart
And you can taste every part
Every inch i give for you alone
And everything you do i condone
But though I allow any act
i can’t say that this is a fact
That fun can last forever
Just that now we are together