By Alfred Brown
This is the poem where I finally got to use the sentence that had been rattling in my brain for a few years “Everything was fine until I got shot in the face.” I wrote it first sometime, probably around 2013, then I did some edits to it around 2014 or 2015. The intention with the edits was to make the poems into songs.
59 -i lost your love
I lost your love when i gambled
I played around and off and rambled
I went somewhere i didn’t belong
And now I know that i went wrong
Cause now I have no place to stay
For it was not for me to say
That time was up for you and i
And now i do nothing but cry
Cause now I am so sad and blue
With no one left, nothing to do
I’ve only a sad song to sing
Can’t fly with this a broken wing
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Oh what is there to live for now
And where to go with no door out
Oh what is there to do when done
And what to see when there’s no sun
I only sit and moan and cry
I want to live but don’t know why
When there’s no one that I adore
And life is but a tire and bore
If begging gets you back i will
If there’s a cure I’ll take the pill
But i don’t think there is a way
Nor is there any words to say
No there is nothing but the end
And no time left to start again
I must be satisfied with it
If not it won’t matter a bit
No I don’t think i’ll see much more
For I see before me a door
That leads perhaps to lack of pain
But with no return back again
So goodbye I am leaving now
But i make you this my last vow
If ever I see you again
I will be sure to call you friend
One more step out one more ramble
One last biggest final gamble
For pain may yet be at this end
If so I hope we meet not then
60 -i lost it all
I lost it all
It’s gone
I had to fall
It’s done
I lost hope
It’s over
I can’t cope
I’m nowhere
I’m dying now
Can’t wait
I’m trying now
Too late
I want to live
For what
I just give
A rut
I’m goin down
At end
Can’t come around
Can’t win
If you hear me
Lend hand
If you’re near me
And can
For if someone
Don’t help
I’ll be fallin
Off shelf
Got nothing left
To do
I am bereft
So blue
So kill me now
End pain
I don’t know how
Start ‘gain
I lost my mind
Long ‘go
When i signed
Didn’t know
So through the years
I’d drift
And with the tears
As gift
I hoped my mind
Came back
But now it’s time
Say fact
I lost it all
It’s gone
I had to fall
It’s done